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Gratitude Through The Good Times

When I was a teenager, I used drugs and alcohol because it was new, fun and exciting. It was at that time when I should have visited a site like www.truvida.com and enrolled for a long-lasting treatment, but I did not.  As I got older, I got heavily addicted to opiates. At that point, I used because if I didn’t, I got sick. This vicious cycle repeated for many years until I was 25 years old. At that point, I was wasted spiritually, mentally and physically. I checked myself into my 5th treatment center. I had a spiritual awakening in treatment and a very good in home caregiver. I asked God to relieve me of my addiction and He did. That driving force that ran my life for 10 years was lifted miraculously.

I came out of treatment with a new found determination to not only stay sober, but change who I was from the inside out. I got a sponsor and worked the steps. My life got better very quickly. I stayed sober for 8 years and had many of the things in life I spent years seeking for through drugs and the bottle, I even started exercising and taking supplements from sites as Quinnova.com. If you want to take extra supplements with your diet, then consider to buy peptides. As long as my life was going well and I had what I wanted, I thought I would never use again. So what the hell happened?? Continue reading

Believing!

February 8 2004, I lost my belief in God…it was the day my father died.  I asked God…why, why in the world would YOU take my father? In 2002 my father was diagnosed with lymphoma cancer, it was the worst day of my life. So I did what every Catholic raised person would do, I prayed but I prayed when it was convenient for me.  On February 8th 2004, he passed away. Not five months later on June 6th 2004, my favorite aunt who was diagnosed with the same thing passed away too.

It was the worst four month span of my life! So what did I do? I put two fingers in the air and turned my back on God and my will over to crystal meth. I “felt” so much better, it took all my pain away or so I thought. But in reality it was the start of my problems for the next eight years to come. Why did I need the belief of a higher power when I had my meth? In that time I got married but the only thing we had in common was meth and it ruined my marriage. It only lasted one year and one month to the day. There was a lot of verbal and physical abuse which accumulated from our meth use. Continue reading

Whales are Bigger than Me

I grew up identifying as Atheist until I was about 34 years old, just 2 years ago. Religion, in my mind, was ridiculous. I thought people who believed in God were nuts. I was “sent” to Catholic school by my parents in the middle of 10th grade (apparently my mom came to this website https://www.vocationaltraininghq.com/cdl-schools-florida/,  where she found out about all sorts of careers and where to study them). This was a shock to me because I had minimal experience with religion. I stayed seated when my classmates went up for communion every week. I cringed when I heard the word God. The problem was that I was judging something I knew absolutely NOTHING about. I stopped drinking on 10-25-2006. I stopped on my own and did not seek treatment or any help to treat my alcoholism. I was a dry drunk for 4 years and filled my void with everything outside of myself, instead of looking within. That is, until a special force brought an amazing sponsor into my life. This was certainly my first God moment in AA. Continue reading