When I was a teenager, I used drugs and alcohol because it was new, fun and exciting. As I got older, I got heavily addicted to opiates. At that point, I used because if I didn’t, I got sick. This vicious cycle repeated for many years until I was 25 years old. At that point, I was wasted spiritually, mentally and physically. I checked myself into my 5th treatment center. I had a spiritual awakening in treatment. I asked God to relieve me of my addiction and He did. That driving force that ran my life for 10 years was lifted miraculously.
I came out of treatment with a new found determination to not only stay sober, but change who I was from the inside out. I got a sponsor and worked the steps. My life got better very quickly. I stayed sober for 8 years and had many of the things in life I spent years seeking for through drugs and the bottle. As long as my life was going well and I had what I wanted, I thought I would never use again. So what the hell happened?? Continue reading